上班半年多了,几乎每个工作日都重复着相同的事情:起床、吃早饭、乘公交车去公司、呆在电脑前、吃午饭、呆在电脑前、乘公交车回来、吃晚饭、呆在电脑前、睡觉、起床……每天都照镜子看看稀拉的胡子,看看脸上的皱纹,看看眼睛的疲倦,值得庆幸的是还没有白发。
我曾经抱怨运气,为什么每件事情都会向着不好的方向发展?我虽然常说要看到事情好的一方面,但我自己却更加无可奈何。现在什么都不怨了,至少不会怨自己,更没有必要怨命运。我努力很多次了,也失败很多次了。和命运的抗争中,输多少次都不算输,赢一次就是赢。
也许我真的很累了,真的很想尝试《暴风雨骑士》里面唱的:“放一个长假。让孩子们去耍。”但不是现在。
I have been working for more than half a year, and almost on every workday same things reapeat: getting up, having breakfast, going to company by bus, staying in front of computer, having lunch, staying in front of computer, going back by bus, having supper, staying in front of computer, going to bed, getting up… Everyday I look at the mirror, at my scattered beard, wrinkles on my face and tiredness in my eyes, and fortunately there is no white hair.
I used to complain about luck, that why everything went to the disadvantageous? I often say the advantageous of things is seen, while I myself feel more helpless. Now nothing deserves complaint, at least not my self, and moreover no fate. I have done my utmost for many times, and failed many time. In the struggle against fate, no matter how many times of losses don’t count a failure, but one mere winning makes a success.
I may be really tired, and want to try very much as "Riders on the Storm" singing: "Take a long holiday. Let your children play." But not now.